Torture is a manifested reality of what has emotionally happened to the fetus in the womb. These terrible varieties of pain, brutal and exquisite, are what the fetus has endured in his/her fetal journey - the recipient of such impulses from the mother who, at times, has dreadful feelings. These are translated by the fetus into pain of such proportion as to be unbearable except by eroticisation and, later in life, by inventing and translating for what long ago were states of great anguish.

The monad - Source - is already in the human being. How did it materialize in human beings? The DNA already exists in that singular unit of consciousness called all - everything - existing. The DNA or the RNA, life force, string theory as it materializes into matter already exists in the monadic state. Though it is in agitation, humanity always thinks it is stationary. In its motion the singular unit agitates itself and progresses to separation into an active force and a passive force. Here magnetism comes into play. In the push and pull of the magnetic there develops an arcing vibration. This begins a cellular process of individuation. In that moment what one knows as DNA and RNA develops into a unique form - for humans. It is in a development into the human body for mankind. For the universe it is the form of time and space and the form of gravity. The DNA is also in the form of the matter of all galaxies. It is to be performed in the arena of human matter for the human body. In the DNA of the monad, there is the utilization of the unique structure of the human body as it is to be in the structure of a galaxy. The monad, the DNA, is the imprint of existence. It will be the existence of a galaxy or a planet or the earth. Every manner of thing has its own DNA/RNA; humans theirs, animals theirs, galaxies theirs, plants theirs, etc. Yet, all of us can be traced back to the singular monad.

Divine mind pictured all this before the big bang when
all this came into existence.

An active level of the monad is individuated consciousness or the individual personality. The monad does not have a personality. It is everything. For example: Father, Son and Holy Ghost when said means the division, and in the division is action. The progress of recognizing the action in this brings forward the uses of intelligence in different qualities whether it is human, plant, mineral, galaxy, planet or time, space, gravity as we know these entities.

In brief the atom of the big bang contained everything
as delineated above. The monad is that atom.

Man came to earth several million years ago for the existence of man to be recognized. Before man, sub matter was already in existence. Each sub matter is a particle of evolution. The consciousness of the monad is all of it. In the usefulness of being in the sphere of matter, consciousness must learn how to work in its sphere. Therefore, we begin with a stone vibration. It teaches the consciousness how to become firm, focused, grounded in matter as the evolution of energy and to learn how to be in such containment, called the stone, releasing its mineral values into the richness of earth's soil, also releasing the value of the seedlings that moves the energy of the plant world.

The Plant world teaches another lesson, the ability to grow. The vibrations of energy needed to have sustainability for the bodies then gets to develop. From there plants, are rooted. Its only movement is by the power of the wind, air, storms, the droppings of its own seeds. All of the above was to prepare for the coming of man, and all is there for the evolution of man, especially his consciousness, and for him to look into his separation from Source.

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PATIENT HISTORY

The patient, whom you will also find in my essay “Venice Beach”, is a man of elder years. He was born in a Midwestern city. He has had a successful career over many decades. Now he is old and plagued by physical problems which, luckily, are not life threatening but exceedingly annoying and about which he complains endlessly.

The old man said, "I had a strange dream."

DREAM
I was in a room with a bunk bed that had three beds. I slept in one but I do not know who was in the other two.

Dr. B: What was your first thought?

Patient: The Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost came to mind and I had no idea why since I am not Catholic and have no experience for teaching in that church. I had another dream.

DREAM

A farceur put a mask of a woman on a gorilla. A black man was there. They were back to back and I could sense and almost see that the two would walk apart and then turn and look at each other and that the black man would be terrified for he would see a creature that didn't conform to the mask on the animal’s face.

The patient continues.

Patient: This must be in Africa because we know that mankind began in Africa and consequently must have been black and where else would there be gorillas but in Africa where they still are.

DREAM

And then I had another dream of a tall slim man and people were hired to develop him. There was a party. Many people came to walk around the house in the grass and I see a friend. I become a bit angry that a place for me was not saved but there was.

Dr. B: You see yourself as part of three and I think, in accord with our prior conversations, you want to understand this state of oneness. After all, your people were the discoverers of the concept of oneness and pushed it, stood by it, fought for it and died for it. So it's a concept that is very important to you as well as to everybody.

Now about the mask. The mask of a woman would of course be giving us the concept of humanity. Humanity is wearing a mask and not knowing who it is. The mask is frightening because the truer inner consciousness is what must be met in order to find our peace. A mask is a facade that covers the true self. The black man represents the first instance into that unconscious level and is frightened by what it is about to see, a gorilla. The gorilla is a primal energy. Already man is separated from Source.

Patient: I am thinking about the third dream and when I think of the word “develop” I am thinking of the development of mankind. When I think about the place being saved, I am thinking that is really a joke. But somehow I am connecting this up with the evolution of man and, not that I really believe it but I can intellectually say that maybe the place saved is a place for God. Of course, that would be a joke especially if you didn’t believe in God yet all the time, in every man, there is a space saved for him.

Dr. B: Well, whether you believe in God or not is immaterial just as it was immaterial whether the people believed in Galileo’s theory, or whether Einstein was right in his theory of relativity. In the end they were right and everybody had to change his/her mind. Changing one’s mind is a considerable task since one has to give up one’s worldview of everything one has believed in. So this dream about the tall man is a continuation, a movement to the unconscious, to the party, to the grasses. How do we become more and more aware of the inner consciousness and even the higher consciousness (the tall man)?

Now the fact that you relate all of these three dreams in this way indicates your great anxiety about them. It is as if you have had to hold a hot potato and can't wait to get it out of your hands. That is understandable. You did well in that it did not wake you up. It was not a nightmare. I call attention to this for you to recognize because you do not usually, sort of speak, "dump". Usually you have a measured approach to your unconscious.

Remember before the gold bar dream you had been occupied with the concept of God, the idea of death and birth, the meaning of life. You know all the questions people begin to have when they reach the age where things settle down, when one has time to contemplate his/her life, when there is no longer the need to scramble every morning to get the job done and the money earned to pay the bills. Wisdom, if it comes at all, comes late in life and I suppose it is appropriate for one should have the wisdom to think about death and what that means, but above it all notice the fear, always the fear of the inner world.

December, 2009