The patient described herein is a woman we have met before in my essays “Applesauce,” “Untold Want,” and “Mysterious Leap From the Mind to the Body.” This is a further development of the patient’s analysis and the progression of her dreams.

DREAM ONE

My female houseguest has committed suicide in the bathtub. I find her lying on her back with her knees bent up. She is dead in the bloody water. I call the police, but now I have to deal with the inconvenience of all of the reporting and answering questions. One of my clients has sent me a contract, and it is all marked up with notes. I am to negotiate it.

ASSOCIATIONS AND INTERPRETATIONS

Patient: I think this dream is important to discuss and analyze because I dreamed it on my birthday. I like to pay attention to my birthday dreams each year because I think they likely relate to something very specific that my unconscious wants me to know about my life, especially for the upcoming year. This dream was very disturbing. The imagery of the dead woman in the bathtub was very graphic, and the water was very bloody.

Dr. B: Did you recognize the woman? You say she was your houseguest.

Patient: Not really. She does not look familiar to me. But I can tell you that this bathroom and this tub look very much like the tub in my bathroom in my current home. That tub is not quite long enough to stretch out all the way, but it is deep just like the tub in the dream.

Dr. B: Would a houseguest be taking a bath in the bathtub in your bathroom?

Patient: I don’t think so, yet in the dream that was happening. I wonder if I think I am dying instead of being born. Maybe I associate my birthday with a death of sorts.

Dr. B: Well, being born into the physical world is a very big change…sort of like life and death. The baby is in the safety of the darkness of the womb and then is suddenly and violently expelled through a process that places compression on the body and the head. It must be a very painful and difficult process for the baby.

Patient: The blood in the water and the position of the dead woman with her knees bent up and her feet flat on the bottom of the tub makes me think about the position that laboring women are often in as they try to deliver their babies…flat on their back with their knees bent. Maybe I am dreaming about my mother giving birth to me on my birthday. We know that she has influenced me profoundly with her own imprint. Maybe she is a houseguest in my unconscious. Maybe the imprint that she gave me is the houseguest that I don’t want to keep alive.

Dr. B: The woman in the bathtub is dead. Your mother was not dead on the day she gave birth to you. Why would you think this dead woman is your mother?

Patient: Maybe my mother felt dead inside the day I was born. Maybe she was stressed about the idea that she now had one more mouth to feed; one more child to look after. She had more clothes to wash and more cleaning to do. Maybe she felt trapped and suicidal at the thought of it all.

Dr. B: I think that is right. After all, she already had other children, and you have told me that your family’s financial circumstance was challenging and that your mother worked tirelessly in the home to cook, clean, wash and the like while your father worked multiple jobs to make enough money to support the family. It is likely that your mother did feel overwhelmed and distressed and depressed with the birth of another child.

Patient: Isn’t it odd how the birth of a baby is supposed to be such a joyous occasion, and even on the surface, people say things like, “oh, how wonderful” or “oh, isn’t your baby beautiful” but the unconscious of the various family members may be saying something quite different.

Dr. B: Of course, it is always the case that the conscious statements made by the mind (the intellect) are not necessarily reflective of the true emotional states, beliefs and values which are held in the unconscious. Even if your mother was cooing over you and cuddling you, this dream says that her unconscious state was a feeling of being suicidal at your birth. This would have been a very difficult thing for you to have experienced and felt as an infant. Your unconscious would have known and “read” her unconscious so that you would have felt her suicidal feelings.

Patient: I suppose these are more moments of imprinting for me. If I felt my mother’s suicidal feelings, then I would have had no choice as an infant to do anything other than attempt to take away her feelings by merging them into myself. I think the rudimentary (although incorrect) logic would be that if she would stop feeling suicidal, then she might stay alive. If she could stay alive, then I would stay alive because I needed her to feed me and take care of me. I think that my omnipotent baby self did not know any better than to decide and believe that absorbing my mother’s toxicity was critical to my own ability to survive. I took on the pain from her unconscious. I took on her feelings of inadequacy and not enough money and not enough love, and those feelings became a part of my imprint from the moments of my birth. Oh my God, this is very upsetting and depressing. I understand that seeing it and knowing it will allow me to release these feelings. They were not mine to begin with, but I do feel them now as if they were mine, and they are very painful. Perhaps I can feel them through and then let them go.

Dr. B: That is exactly what you want to do. You are telling yourself in the dream that the feelings of the imprint were and are very burdensome to you. That is why the police are bogging you down with questions and interrogation. The police are another way of referring to the imprint – the police are authority figures, and the imprint is every person’s driving internal authority unless they come to analysis to work through the imprint. The police and the imprint have you in their hold and keep you from going about the real business of your life. The imprint can be quite burdensome. It eliminates the ability to live a full and rich life. It will burden you with more than just inconvenience. That is why you are getting the telephone call about the contract that is marked up with notes. This is the contract of your life. The client who gives you the contract is giving it to you to negotiate. That is because you are to leave your mother’s feelings behind in the bloody water of the bathtub, that is, you are to leave her imprint in the bloody waters of her own unconscious. You have a job to do…to fulfill your own life’s contract and purpose. The client who brings you the contract with the notes represents the Divine. You are being given the contract of your life, and the Divine has given you notes on how to live it. You are to focus on the contract and negotiating it for yourself so that you do not live by your mother’s imprint anymore. That imprint is dead in the water, and if you continue to hold on to the remnants of it in living your life, you will end up like the dead woman in the bathtub…bloody and lifeless because your imprint will have killed you.

Patient: (Patient is silent.) This is very powerful and very disturbing. (Patient is silent.) Why did I dream of this particular client as the one who gives me the contract? I could have dreamed any of my many clients, but my unconscious picked this one. Why?

Dr. B: We have spoken of this client before. Isn’t he a black man?

Patient: Yes.

Dr. B: Black is the color of the unconscious. That is a good color.

Patient: Well, that makes the next dream of my birthday night dreams make sense. In that dream, I was at a dinner and talking to a black executive at another one of my clients…she has a deal pending with me in the dream, and we are discussing it in the dream. This black executive and my black client are the only two people of color with whom I deal regularly in my business, and in the same night, I dreamed about them both. I guess the black executive was also a manifestation of the Divine being delivered through the unconscious to reinforce the message to me that I have a contract/a deal pending with myself and the Divine this lifetime. I need to see it through…live the lifetime correctly and with integrity and truth…follow my life’s path as laid out in the deal that I made with the Divine before I came into this body this lifetime.

Dr. B: It is very interesting and wonderful that you would have had two dreams back-to-back on the eve of the day of your birth that both deal with the unconscious reminding you of your contract with the Divine and your life’s purpose. These are good dreams for a birthday and tell you that your job this year is to keep living within your contract with the Divine. You are not to follow your imprint anymore. To do so will leave you lifeless and bloody.

COMMENTARY

The patient has been in analysis a long time and intellectually understands the problem expressed in the dream. I think it may be helpful if I explained more about the "guest." The "guest" is a complex state for it represents the baby inside the mother and all that that sets off in the mother and in the fetus as well. As the patient says, she has to absorb the terrible feelings her mother had at the time. These are documented here and in many other essays I have written previously about this patient. Not only must the patient absorb the depression and wish to die that the mother had at that time but she has to fall in line with them. Absorption of these feelings leads to one becoming the person who had them originally, that is, the mother. In the actual session some time ago it was something that particularly struck me and she said, "Of course I fell into line with it" and so do we all.

The interesting consequence is that henceforward the person, here the patient, has the mother as a "guest" in her house (life). Consider the tableau in the dream. Who would want this particular mother forever a "guest" in one's life, that is, in one's mind? Not only that, it is sure to be passed on to any children the patient has.

This is the way it has been for all of mankind forever. Babies have to "fall in line" with the personal travails of the mother's unconscious mind. The external difficulties or horrors that mothers in other parts of the world suffer are also events that have to be internalized. I leave it to the reader what the burdens are to the children in Africa, in areas of the Middle East, or anywhere where there is bombing, killing, mutilation and all the rest. No matter how successful one is, it is these internal burdens that we all carry, some lesser, some greater, that eventually begin to do us in, in one way or another. The patient is a very successful person in all the ways society judges success, yet she too has been severely impacted by her imprint.

In the dream there is the matter of the black man who represents the patient's higher self, that part of every human being that can access the Divine. Here the patient is being told that she has not completed her contract. There were many notes. These would have to be attended to. In my essay "The Long Hello" I wrote about the many resistances we use to justify our actions or motivations for our actions. These, in the end, are the rationalizations to avoid doing what needs to be done. I wrote that getting better is the enemy of getting well entirely, for we can be lulled by the improvement and feel we needn’t push into the difficult areas we must address in analysis. Again, though I have written about this in my essay mentioned above, I will say briefly that with an analysis the themes of one’s life become defined and understood. There is the feeling that one can deal with them. However, as long as the imprint and the internal saboteur remain elusive, as long as they are not directly confronted and grappled with and all fear is gone the task is not complete. Near the end is not good enough but it is understood that everyone chooses to go as far as they feel they have to go. If one leaves before the above challenge, it is certain that the imprint and the internal saboteur will show their face again.

The patient felt she could shrug off the course of her path and accommodate what was a pleasure to her, even though her dreams told her it would not be in her best interest. She listened to the remarks and she listened to the message but felt she could handle it. At this point in her life, with her imprint reminding her, she is further reminded that there are a lot of other things she must attend to in order to get herself back on her path.

What I have come to understand is that there can be no compromise with the Divine. It would be tantamount to a scientist saying about one of the laws of the universe that he doesn't like a part of it and he intends to ignore that part because for whatever reason it bothers him.

If Divine law reigns in all things, not only in the physical universe but also in the human domain, we cannot tamper with that law even if we do not see it expressed in mathematical terms. All scientists can also see and agree to it. When that happens, it is a fact. No more discussion about it.

It would seem that there is a similar picture seen in the affairs of mankind that works exactly and as stringently as in the physical world. Simply put, you cannot compromise with Source. That is exactly the trouble with mankind, and always has been.

People have the idea that we need only win over our enemy (as indeed the enemy needs to win over us). Then we run the place (or they run the place). Because that has happened, people began to believe it always worked that way. When life was simpler and people understood less of their lives, their cultures, their geography, the physical world around them, that simple belief could prevail.

Today we are far from that simplicity, and indeed it is becoming difficult for any one people to be the master of all other peoples. In some continents that struggle is still going on. People oppose the state of living or state of mind that says, "I am the master, you are the slave."

Admittedly, in our complex, sophisticated societies, if we stripped matters to the bone, we are attempting the same tactic. We do it with war. We are still in Iraq and Afghanistan and now are beginning to go into Pakistan. Aside from this overt action of invasion and war, we do it in secret with bribery and by covert agreement. However, a new order is approaching, a new way that is needed to serve all the people better than we have been served to date.

To go back to compromise, the patient is being told there can be none. Here is what you have to do or you will surely have to take the consequences. Close attention to cyclical events confirms this ultimatum.

From this individual we can extrapolate to our current political situation as engineered by the intellectual power elite (and ultimately by Congress), which acts as if there are no consequences to the people. I wish to point out that there is another intellectual segment of society, one that does not agree with this first segment. It is seemingly beyond comprehension that the people elect officials who are so omnipotent that they can say about their mistakes, "Let us put them behind us and begin anew.” We have heard this many times over the course of many years. Unfortunately, it is not true. In the case of an individual, one cannot say, “What was done was wrong. Put it behind you and go on.” One can never do this in individual life. The mind will not allow such denial without a great cost to personal functioning. The mind will insist that the person understand the origin of taking the wrong turn. In fact, a person cannot go on in life until they sort out the consequence of that wrong turn. To go on as if it did not happen only increases the mental and emotional burdens and eventually brings on hopelessness, desperation, depression, alcohol and drug abuse, and immobilization. Eventually it can lead to suicide.

Mr. Obama will be known as the great compromiser and seemingly will have great success. However, even though there have recently been a number of important successes, Mr. Obama has not followed the platform on which he was elected, that is, transparency and reform of the glaring mistakes made under the Republican party aegis. In fact, Mr. Obama has continued Guantanamo and he has extended the war. Naturally people feel betrayed. He has not been completely successful with the important legislation he introduced because in the matter of Wall Street, the matter of the pharmaceutical companies, the insurance companies and the financial sectors, he has made many concessions. I see these concessions as placations followed by compromise, and Mr. Obama as a placater and compromiser. The latest placation was a tax cut for the richest one percent of Americans, followed by compromise. A person who has to placate another is obviously afraid of the other. This quality of character is born deep in the recesses of infancy and childhood when one was weak and placation was a means of survival.

In reality, if one were facing a gun, I think this action would be acceptable. The person who placates without a gun in his/her face feels a very large gun is nonetheless present. With Mr. Obama there is this giving way, the placation and then the compromise when more is obviously given away. Mr. Obama has the high intelligence to rationalize his actions and he has a spin team to buttress his rationalized actions. He thinks he has a win/win situation. Since his actions, along with those of Congress, will echo in our lives and in our children's lives for a long time, it is important to document exactly what is happening. A record must be kept.

Time is what politicians count on to not be brought to account in this physical world. However, in my patients’ lives as well as in my own, there is always an accounting. As Shakespeare said, "and who shall escape whipping...." (Hamlet, act 2, scene 2)

A part of governance holds that secrets are a necessity, so there is a great deal of secrecy in the name of the best interests of the people. But the people are never asked to vote on what is in their best interest. Usually it turns out that "best interests" favors a department of government, a group of individuals, or an industry or corporation. What best interests means here is a lot of money. With this system inevitably comes corruption and it is an oil that flows easily everywhere. Corruption requires secrecy, so we have a dichotomy: being an open and free society with first amendment rights while first amendment rights interfere with the government’s declared need. At this point, government is the victor; the first amendment right is lost. Corruption might be compared to illness in the human being--physical or emotional or both. When one placates or compromises, the first amendment rights of the individual vanish. From then on there is a struggle and a compromise between secrecy and openness. My experience in psychoanalysis is that secrecy and/or lying causes mental and/or physical disease. When this struggle goes on long enough there is a breakout in physical or emotional illness. No one gets off scot-free. This is a universal law.

Every time the body politic is lied to, in the mind of every individual it is the parent lying. A lie creates a stain, a blot, a betrayal, a deception, a cheating, a taking advantage of. It is this that is in the inception of all illness. How long can a government ignore the contradiction? How long can it afford to force people to pay medical bills for illnesses that perhaps were originated by their parents, but were then exacerbated by government’s deceptions and betrayals? At some point the house will fall down because of the rot. This has been the fate of every empire that ever rose to eminence--to fall into ashes. People say, as they have throughout the millennia, "This is life and so it goes." However, it does not have to be that way. Because there are masters (Washington) and all that it implies, the people are fundamentally slaves. The trend in the world is on a regressive track. All the social benefits of the past seventy years will be slowly taken away. The masters will say our deficit is too great, but there is no sane thinking to stop the wars, stop the deficit. The country will be a trillion dollars richer. The deficit will be addressed. These are wars that do not profit the people in any way.

The paradigm the leaders of the world are following is that of God, ruling all the people. God is in truth the only true master, but he has not made mankind slaves. He has given mankind the right to work out its destiny and find its way back to him. This model has not been accomplished anywhere in the world. Man attempts to gain power and security by brute strength, diplomacy, crossing the palm, or assassination. It is easy to see why someone like Julian Assange, who has strong feelings about transparency and the truth, is hounded everywhere. Whoever blocks him tells us that that entity has secrets they do not wish revealed. The more egregious the crimes, the greater the secrecy. Think Hitler and the Nazis. Think Stalin and the Communists. Think Mussolini and the Fascists.

In one's personal life, secrets are contained in the unconscious and it is these secrets in the form of the internal saboteur that fight revelation. We in America have an ambivalent view of whistleblowers: they are necessary but reviled, even if the information is for the good of all. What is good for all is transparency. What is good for all is the truth.

It is the truth that is the cure to illness. Transparency and the truth make a person healthy. Who would complain about that? The outcry about Assange is indicative of the very strong feelings that are being exposed. Patients recoil at the amount of exposure psychoanalysis requires. People would rather take their clothes off in the consulting room than take off their mental clothes. That's when the choking begins. Yet the analyst knows it is when this is done that the glow of innocence and health begins to emerge, and trust in the greater forces that exist is then an emotional fact, as much a fact as any scientific principle.

There has been a misunderstanding for a very long time concerning our civilization and people who lived in prior civilizations. Briefly, they began, they prospered, they grew, came to an apogee, and they involuted. This series of events had to do with the idea that strength was physical power and could conquer everything. Later it began with the idea that the intellect could solve and control everything: "Knowledge is power." Knowledge has conquered a lot. The scientific community has flourished and mankind has gained immeasurable knowledge as a result. Are we not as Gods? Movies are made with that idea, all sci-fi and masters of the universe. So it is beyond the mortal world and everything that makes for the organic beauty of this earth.

Brilliant men have deduced the idea of parallel universes. This has intrigued scientists, and pictures and ideas have emerged as to how, once we have thoroughly destroyed this earth, we--some of us (who would choose?)--would slip through a “wormhole” to another universe to begin the process again.

I know there is a parallel universe and it has been with us a very long time, maybe even before the intellectual universe became prominent. This parallel universe is called the unconscious. This idea was broached by Freud some one hundred years ago but, since he did not get the paradigm right, it came to an early end. At first it flourished with all its bright stars, but like the trajectory of the Roman Empire it failed and lapsed into near obscurity. Few people now look to it for much enlightenment. However, in my paradigm I show a universe more vast than the intellectual one--deeper, darker, and infinite, yet clearer and more optimistic. I have found in this parallel universe a quality called the truth, the truth of any situation that exists in this swirling island called earth. There are certainly answers for mankind and, I believe, there are answers for all the scientific disciplines which have emerged since science truly began. This immense quality has been absent from the affairs of men. Now we see what happens if the intellect alone sits at the head of the table. It is time to make a place for the knower of all things to have equal input, in fact, I would say to have the major input.

This comes with a caveat. As with a patient, there are no compromises. One cannot make a deal with Source. You cannot broker, seduce, wound, or kill Source. For mankind this is a tough sell. The politicians, the dealmakers, the dealers and brokers will not have a place at the table. It will not matter whether you are a billionaire or a garbage collector. Everyone will get a fair deal. No one will pull out any card from the bottom of the deck.

I know one thing. There will be no war anywhere, no special deals for anyone. There can be peace. Everyone will eat. Everyone will get health care. Everyone will get an education. Everyone will get a chance to follow his/her path and to make good on a promise made long ago, dim in memory of this earth plane but young in a parallel universe. Will people fight for this? I think so. People will also fight against this. Who will win? I am betting on the side of Source. I am looking at the long haul.

I have been asked many times about the internal saboteur and I think the concept of it is very hard to grasp though it is there in the mind. From the very start of the big bang it is part of the early ego, which is in pain beyond belief and frozen to that moment. In the course of an analysis it is this quality that deters progress; it is the great fear of this archaic piece of history for every human being, especially for those on the backward journey of their lives. The internal saboteur fears that going back will once again ignite that indescribable pain; it makes the person unwilling to do it even if it means the personality ossifies around it and dies.

This part of us is against progress or change. The best example representing this situation in real life is what we see every day in Washington--political obstruction. Whatever regime we happen to live by at the moment is the same. Here in our country I would say that the internal saboteur can be viewed externally. It is the political system we have. Currently we are on a downward trend. It is as if we went too far post-1945 when so many wonderful social programs were put into effect and gave us a middle class, wealth, expansion, and freedom. That was going too far. Now as I have said we are on a path of involution. All those positive changes will be withdrawn bit by bit until we have contracted in spirit, in economy, in everything. It is similar to the individual in analysis realizing the danger of progress but not seeing the ultimate greater benefit of going on, who quits the analysis and then suffers an impoverished life.

A person like Assange is anathema to the established order. Transparency, the move toward health for everyone, is seen by the establishment as the coming of Satan (even though there is no such thing as Satan). Vested interests centuries old are just not having any of that. It remains to be seen whether the move to greater truth and freedom, to real progress and security, to real happiness, will prevail in the end.

The current system (here or anywhere) is going to have to face this challenge because it has been given to Assange and a large group of like-minded people tired of the high price paid for the system they are under and in which they essentially have no voice. These people are determined to change all that. This will be a world struggle. This is why every vested regime will attempt to cut down what they see as an ugly movement (ugly because it means change). A breath of fresh air is intruding in their stagnant world.

The truth is that even those in power are paying a high price. They do not see it or feel it. In our terms, all of these people are in denial.

EPILOGUE

The patient has a dream some six weeks after "the guest suicide" dream.

It is short.

DREAM TWO

I was at the airport coming home. I realized I had forgotten some small things but important to me. I went back to the hotel and found them and went back to the airport. I had 20 minutes to spare.

COMMENTARY

I shall relate in the narrative what was said between the patient and myself.

The sundries turned out to be a hairbrush, her favorite hairbrush, and a bottle of perfume she had bought in Europe that was not available here. The sundries were of slight importance or very important. At one point she said, "The brush was felt to be very important to me as if it were a core need." So at the end there was an ambivalent feeling about the meaning of the sundries. It was an ambivalence she was exhibiting in the dream. If it was a little thing, why go back and risk losing the flight? However, the fact that she went back indicated how vitally important she found the sundries.

She said it expressed the essence of her.

The next day she came in with a dream and a statement about her frustration at the large amount of work she had to do, especially this time of year. Everyone was on vacation. She complained about the amount of work even as she was appreciative of it and the fact that so many people were out of work. She felt like her mother who was not able to even have a plate of ice cream. I asked if her mother in her busyness all day and evening could not sit and eat a plate of ice cream while the washer or dryer was going? Yes, she could. However, the patient did not remember. Her memory was that the mother was ceaselessly working. I asked was it this way or was it her perception that it was this way? It was remarkable that she was in the same position now as she had been years ago.

DREAM THREE

In her dream she was dividing her hair strictly down the middle making a part in the middle of her head. Doing that hair by hair.

I said, "It sounds like that is going to take a very long time." The reader must remember this patient has been in analysis a very long time.

She said, "I know what I am doing. I am separating my intellect from my feelings. You know left brain, right brain. And the demarcation was very clear and done very carefully hair by hair."

She agreed she had regressed to the beginning of the analysis when she dreamed she only had one feeling. It took a number of years before she had become the possessor of a dozen feelings.

She complained again about all the work and no time for play. She recalled her longing for fun. This recalled a boyfriend who lived in the same city she was coming home from in her dream, a boyfriend who had abused her and whose abuse she accepted very passively. She had no will to oppose his actions that would, if unstopped, destroy her. She did not call him although she had thought of him tangentially. Then she herself linked the regression to a statement, "I know I have to do something that will change my life but I am afraid. I feel I stand on the edge of an abyss."

I called to mind the dream about the trip, that is her going back for the sundries, and I said the dream could be viewed as saying these sundries are the essence of my being and without them I feel I will die. She agreed at once. She said, "That feels correct." I linked these small items to the fear she felt. She had to hurt and to bear a self-inflicted period of great pain and abuse which she allowed to happen to herself. As a consequence she feels her essence is her vulnerability, her dependency, and she has to prize them and protect them above all else. She then brought up a current boyfriend who is of great help and said, as if in wonder, "He is so good to me, helps me, encourages me but I see it encourages me to be dependant and weak." As we talked she felt she was weak in her legs and said, "I can hardly hold the phone." (This was a phone session.) So it all may be true. I reminded her of what she said after a weekend with this man. She felt she had no legs, no arms and was helpless to do anything about it.

I said, "What you are saying then is what you prize the most, what you have to defend the most is being the fetus at the moment of the 'big bang.' That was the time you could describe yourself in these terms."

She said, "Yes, I see it. I do understand it. I really for the first time do understand."

I said, "And what about the 20 minutes? I think you know what the number 20 stands for. It is the judgment card. I think this is really linking back to the dream you had six weeks ago when you were sent a contract with notes for correction of the contract. I think the dream is telling you once again that there is an accounting followed by a judgment, and no individual on earth escapes an accounting and a judgment.”

I think the only people I know who feel they can escape an accounting and a judgment are members of Congress.

The force that has kept her a prisoner to this emotional state, despite her accomplishments, has been this misunderstanding and misperception of the truth. It is the internal saboteur that has held her captive to this lie for fear of experiencing that pain, that "big bang" pain.

So is mankind held captive to this entity that I call the internal saboteur. Considering this fact, the most important human factor in life as we consciously know it, is the internal saboteur which operates unconsciously, that is conservative, never wanting too much change in the lives of men and women. Indeed, wars and other calamities prevent mankind from pursuing the delights of the good life as written about by so many great writers, and the pursuit of happiness remains a will-o’-the-wisp.

In evaluating the problems that individuals have, it always comes to a point for the moment of change which the patient calls jumping into the abyss. It is the moment of greatest fear. This is what everyone fears. As a consequence, mankind is fundamentally conservative. It fears going too far to the right or to the left. This may explain why in our politics there is always the admonition for candidates for public office to move to the center.

Mankind obeys its unconscious.

I think it is fair to say all people have this experience, the experience of being a fetus, the experience of what I call the "big bang," and infancy.

I think it is fair to say that all men and women are fundamentally weak, all having this experience. Those who protect themselves the most may indeed be the weakest of us all. They must find their particular tool of power to insure the status quo: possessions, money, whatever in life passes for a force to be reckoned with may indeed signify the weakest and most vulnerable who feel secure by adding to their power. However, there is an accounting. That is, as I have said, whoever and whatever one is on this earth plane for the blink of a light, that is our life.

CONCLUSION

The United States was honored as beginning under the graciousness of God. What have the people done? Have they forgotten that they activated their wholeness, their harmony, their completeness and balance under the name of God?

Why did the people forget that? The vibration in your dream is saying let us truly reread that union with Source consciousness. It is saying that we as a country can have a true marriage, not a false marriage, and that one man, or group of men and women, can come together to formulate the government from their hearts and minds at which time they are working from Divine essence, not simply from the personal tract of consciousness.