This essay is about the changing consciousness of human awareness - its evolution - and the constant cycles of life that everyone lives in his/her lifetime, and in enumerable lifetimes. Where are we ultimately going?

It is said we are born, we live and we die. This is reduction to the bone of man's existence. When this is fleshed out, being born is not as simple as it was formerly thought. The amount of mental and emotional activity in the fetus infant is prodigious. The mother's mental state throughout her pregnancy is registered by the fetus and no fetus leaves the womb without a definite mark on his/her psyche.

Case One describes a dream by Charles Cohen, who figured in Chapter Thirteen of my book, The Mother's Signature: A Journal of Dreams, and whose dreams I have used to illustrate various psychic states - emotional ones including ones of great spiritual activity and knowledge. His dream verifies a dream of some eight or nine years ago.

There is also a dream about impending death - something that awaits all of us - and describes the circumstances of a particular man. In this way he stands for all of us.

Case Two presents the dreams of a man who is described in a number of essays, one on reincarnation titled "Roundabout". His dreams are in some way prophetic as in the essay "Tear Down The House". He examined a producer's arrogance, which he associated with Mr. Obama. There was a note of regret in that episode, being that all this was before the President assumed office. Now he again brings forth dreams of the possibility, since he has always been skeptical of past lives and the nature of those lives, with dreams that terrified him more then he has ever been in his entire life.

His dream indicated a closer connection between the conscious and the unconscious, certainly an evolutionary move for all of mankind. His dreams betrayed the agitated consciousness of the greatest aware person that has ever lived, sent, as it is said by the Divine, to teach man that we have one purpose in life and that is to love one another.

Not only is this seen in his dreams but he, in this turbulent night of dreaming, goes to Source itself as if to implore the Divinity for help. This patient dreams often not only for himself but for the mass unconscious and gives us information about people the planet over who are feeling and suffering physically, mentally and emotionally.

Recent developments about President Obama are coming into sharper focus so that it seems this patient's dream portrayed an entirely different picture of President Obama, quite at variance to where people placed him when he spun into their hearts and got him elected on the promises he made.

Today none of those promises have been delivered. It's as if this voice of the people has after six months been swamped by the establishment. A few public voices are speaking out and a few groups that helped elect President Obama have become disaffected. How could someone so easily, so soon become seduced by the masses of the world (see essay "Masters, Slaves and the Imprint").

It is as if today the same people who brought this country and the world to its knees are still in charge. The insurance companies are still running the future health plans for everyone and there is no transparency about the past.

Every therapist knows absolutely that healing can never take place unless there is openness about past transgressions. Keeping brutish commissions hidden will only hurt the people and convince the world we are as dishonest as ever. What a pity since the secrets will eventually emerge in any case, but we will have lost truly the moral high ground we claim.

The masters of the country are very clever and always have been. They have propagandized people into feeling that healthcare for all is a bad thing. It is Socialism, it is not being manly, not true to the American spirit of independence. However, they make no secret of running to the government for billions of dollars. Whose money? The people's money. Socialism is quite acceptable when it is for them.

When one is lucky enough to live a long time, one sees the blast of propaganda that rushes forward all the time. The people are constantly being misled and confused. What the masses never say or betray is their conviction that Socialism for the rich is fine and necessary and money given to them is their due unequivocally. This is a long time - thousands of years - imprint. Now is the time when a new thinking and feeling must come about.

It is to be a kind of actionable awareness we see in Iran today. Who can believe a false tyranny? The piercingly sad fact is that we, in America, for the past eight years have done exactly that.

Since the masters will not share their good fortune in all things, and they never have, it is incumbent upon the people in America to raise their awareness of what is due them. And this must become so strong that Congress will be compelled to grant them a right that everyone should have - the right to good health and all of the other rights Mr. Obama promised. I remind the reader he said he wanted the people to have the same health options that all members of Congress have. Now they are quibbling over how many crumbs should be doled out. Yet Congress has given President Obama one hundred billion dollars for war. There is a return here only to the owners of munitions factories. There is no return for the people except to possibly have your child return from war in a pine box and with a note of condolence. A quiet irony here.

Our disappointment of our expectations is not a new phenomenon for us. Long ago all of us were disappointed and betrayed unwittingly by our parents and, after we "forgot" about it and excused them and justified it, as is being done currently, there is a very good question as to how much do people, after all the rhetoric, the glistening promises, really believe they deserve. Another long time imprint.

I am reminded of a story I read as a boy of ten. When Alexander the Great visited Corinth, he found the philosopher Diogenes lying in the sun. The king kindly asked him if there was anything he wanted. The surly philosopher replied, "Yes, stand out of my sun."

I enjoyed the courage of this simple man then. Today I see a deeper meaning in it. The simple man represents the masses of the world who want the Source/Sun to shine upon them. Source/Sun is for everyone. Too long have the masters blocked the abundance of Source. All of us have to be aware of what is our natural right.

CASE ONE: PATIENT INTRODUCTION

This patient is Charles Cohen, a successful artist and author, in his early sixties, physically healthy, very educated, sophisticated and a highly curious person searching for answers. He is the case study in chapter thirteen of my book The Mother’s Signature: A Journal of Dreams as well as several essays.

DREAM

I’m taking care of a large house with many people in it....

It’s my house. The Queen of England comes to visit. She’s preceded by her Home Secretary dressed in black. He has brought with him a plain small black wicker box in which the Queen, when she’s away from London, keeps her emergency telephone. The Home Secretary puts the telephone box on my kitchen table. As part of the Queen’s visit, he is going to recount how when he recently tried to phone the Queen at Balmoral, she didn’t respond because she had forgotten to keep the phone in the black box. But when the Queen arrives at my house, she is displeased with this plan. She stands by the kitchen table with her back toward me facing her Home Secretary. I can tell she is signaling him not to tell the story about the phone box being empty. She doesn’t want the world to know that she hadn’t bothered to put the phone in the box.

The Queen sits with her entourage at my kitchen table. I’m serving her. I ask if there’s anything else I can serve her. I’m appalled when I look in the refrigerator to find that the Queen and her entourage have brought with them cartons of processed orange juice and pasteurized milk from the city. I had planned to serve them raw fresh milk and organic local food. The Queen replies, “Well, actually, I’d like some Monopole and some ------- .” (I can’t remember the second brand name she asks for.) Then she asks polite questions about trees and animals she sees out the window.

Later I’m in London in a parking lot with the Home Secretary, recapping with him the Queen’s visit. We get into his long black car. “What kind of car is this?” I ask him. He tells me it’s a Masserati (or another expensive car, maybe a Bentley) which has several added features. We get in the car. As we ride, we recap the Queen’s visit to me, her not wanting the world to know about not having kept the phone in the black box, and about she and her entourage bringing their own processed food to the country.

Patient: I dreamed this dream the night after my birthday.

Dr. B: So what about your birthday?

Patient: Oh, many of my friends came by. It was a very pleasant day. R couldn’t make it though she tried. She seems never able to come.

Dr. B: What can you tell me about this water in the dream?

Patient: I think of Spa Monopole which is a brand name of bottled water in Belgium. There is a Spa Monopole which is non-sparkling and Spa Gazeux which is sparkling version of the same water. The actual Queen of England, even when away from home, always drinks Malvern water. Her ice cubes are made from Malvern water. I recall when I was in my 20’s I made a short 16 mm film called “The Box Is Empty”. A friend is coming today. Despite knowing that I enjoy feeding him fresh raw milk, he always brings with him a carton of pasteurized milk, a carton of processed orange juice, etc, etc. He is not well. He doesn’t know that it’s the food he eats and so many people are not well because of their bad eating habits. My friends D and S came. D’s father is 95 and is in the hospital. His mother is 91. As D told me about this, I felt he needed support. I went to the hospital with him to see his Dad. His Dad had his mouth open, looking at the TV, which was on. He was disinterested in what was being said. He had an oxygen tube in his nose and, as D said, he didn’t want to eat. I sat and talked with the father. I had met him some time ago. He is a very nice old man. I told him how much he had contributed to the family and the community and that it was a pleasure to share these moments with him and that now he could let go after a hard life. He can let go and float. As I spoke with him, he pulled the oxygen tubes out of his nose and when the nurse brought food, he began to eat. He noticed he was getting stronger as he ate and when he noticed that, he stopped eating. Obviously he wants to die and he knows that D wants him to die but his body, being strong and healthy, won’t let him. D has been taking care of his parents for the last 25 years as well as teaching and looking after the farm. In the hospital, it was a beautiful day, the window open, spring in New England. I think you remember, Dr. Bail, what spring in New England is like.

Dr. Bail: I think it is remarkable how quickly a person like this old man who wants to die and can’t is brought to life when he is attentively addressed. I think if he had somebody to talk with in this way, as you did, he would be very inclined to live as long as he had to live. In addition, what he needs is mental nourishment as important as his food because he responded so quickly to your generosity.

Patient: There is my cousin, G, who is 100. In the past year, she has been talking about wanting to die but her body is also very strong and it does not want to die. Recently she has stopped complaining of living.

Dr. B: I think it is also remarkable that he will just die, not from any disease. You tell me he has no pain. He will just simply die. Everything will wither and he will step into his transition, as we all must one day. I think that is how it is supposed to be. All without pain. So let’s go back to your dream, which I think is in juxtaposition to this story. Your dream talks about the Queen and, of course, it is the Queen Mother you are talking about or essentially it is the Mother you are talking about when you were one day old. And what is important here is the fact that the phone is not in the black box so there can be no communication. That would be reasonable since your mother is already dead.

Patient: You know I remember a dream I had many years ago, almost when we began this work. There was a bureau and a high-heeled shoe which fell off and, in the process of my associations, the shoe became a phone and in that dream somebody was crying, “Help, Help”. You said that this was me as a newborn infant crying for help.

Dr. B: Well, again obviously you have a very, very good memory and it is as if it has taken all these years to confirm my interpretation of that time because here in this dream there is no phone so there can be no communication. And what the mother says, as you associate it, “Monopole, Monopoly” – power. Obviously the phone is symbolic. What your mother lacked was the emotional quality of empathy, to hear you calling for help. But if she were interested in power, as your dream today is saying, obviously she wouldn’t hear any cry for help.

So what about the Home Secretary in the limousine?

Patient: I think the Home Secretary is you. That’s what you and I do and I suppose the very elegant car is psychoanalysis and you and I talk about things like what we have discussed this hour. I wish I could use my dreams more directly in my writing.

Dr. Bail: Why don’t you ask your unconscious to do exactly that?

Patient: I will.

CASE TWO: PATIENT INTRODUCTION

The patient is Frank, a 53 year-old man who is a writer and a director of commercials who came into analysis because he was unhappy with his life. For those interested, this is the patient identified in the in the essays "Reflections on the Global Financial Crisis (Dream Two)," "Roundabout," and "Masters, Slaves and Imprints."

DREAM ONE

From a balcony I am watching a beautiful woman move through a garden party in a beautiful courtyard. Her hair is like the old French court, a high white powdered wig. She is elegantly dressed. The overall effect is white. She is guiding a bunch of dogs on a leash, or they are pulling her. She moves up an elegant flight of stairs and I follow her. We end up in a rather simple bedroom. There is a wooden bowl that is oblong shaped on the floor by a bed. I am told, or I am thinking, that her dress or her bed comforter, which is on the bed, can be set onto the wooden bowl to make it soft for a baby to sleep in. Some strange sense that a person (a baby) is coming into this from a past life, into this bowl which is about the size of the womb.

PATIENT'S THOUGHTS

I said that I felt I was moving towards the bedroom as well, with the woman. Was I the one being born? Was this some image of my mother? She seemed to be of royalty but this bothered me in some ways. The idea of past lives still worries me but I had such a strong sense of it in this dream. I mentioned that one of the things that bothers me is that everyone who talks about past lives seems mostly to have been from royalty or of something important.

ASSOCIATIONS

Patient: I, along with other people, have had this idea that the womb is a place of paradise but I have since learned it was not an easy sojourn there. Not a good place to be for most people.

Dr. B: And the woman?

Patient: I can't say much more than I have. I can only think she was royalty. Last night was really nightmarish. I woke several times at intervals feeling exhausted and fell back to sleep knowing I needed more sleep.

DREAM TWO

I was drifting across a street. It was in some ways similar to the apartment area I live in now, which has a lovely Spanish courtyard. I have been told in the dream that Dr. Bail has moved in here. I go visit. He or someone tells me that his wife is often in the front area, quite large and under construction. It is also Spanish style and very elegant. I am led inside. It’s under construction, two stories high. There are many ancient statues inside. “Up to here”, (about ½ of the structure) I am told was the original living residence. Had it originally been two houses, now rebuilt into one? Yes, I think so. “Beyond that”, I am told, “were the servant quarters” (also a courtyard). It all seems to be being made into one very large and elegant house.

Patient: I have heard of that even from you but I have been skeptical. I need to feel it in my body before I can believe. And in this dream I felt it. Like the Forum, over centuries, it's still the same Rome in the world only we call it America.

Dr. B: I think this dream signifies the coming together of your conscious and unconscious selves. The two houses with the wall broken through signifies a union of those two parts and I think it does reflect incarnations of lives where you have suffered and died, probably killed in a brutal way.

Imagine what it was like to be the victim of a Roman soldier, or a woman or child, which would not stop the soldier from killing you. Your difficult night reflects a great deal of this in addition to your current stressful life.

Patient: After yesterday I felt relieved but I could really feel the weight of my years with R and how powerful that experience was that it confused me entirely during the day. Her unconscious is still so powerful pushing into me.

Dr. B: Yes, and I want to say something about the regal woman with the four dogs, indicating a person of great power, and the observation that maybe part of her gown covers the bowl. Yes, that is in the womb from which the baby comes. The dream says that before the imprint of the mother, with its difficult challenge, there is an earlier imprint of the Divine mother and that is there for everyone in the world - the imprint of her love. It is to this we must all reach, allowing that to be the vital center of our lives.

Patient: I had two other small fragments of dreams last night which as you already see was a terrible night for me.

DREAM THREE

It is a horrifying scene of war. It seems to be in a city with a large lake. I seem to be under a kind of bridge. A few terrified people move by me in slow motion in the water. There are some wooden platforms, parts of them broken or destroyed and blackened. I am trying to get past these people through the water. Will I make it? A person fights past me, very close to me (in slow motion) dying? Or am I dying?

I woke breathing hard, feeling paralyzed, not able to get out of my sleep and I thought again, "I've got to get some rest" and fell asleep again. And then I had these two little fragment dreams.

DREAM FOUR

There is a trout in the dream. Is it two-headed? I’m not sure, but it does go back and forth, back and forth very quickly. This is discussed in the dream.

DREAM FIVE

I see a yellowing map of a village of tents in the Middle East. The tribe’s leader is named Aran. He is known as the trout.

Patient: I thought about the water dream and the dying. What came to me were the wars going on everywhere and the confusion and fear of so many people, not to mention all the civilians killed in Iraq. We say collateral damage as if that is the answer. Not a nice way to die even if you are collateral damage.

Dr. B: I think we have just spoken about this dream in speaking of the other. Past lives, past deaths, many not pleasant and what about Aran?

Patient: I don't know. Nothing comes to mind. It was not Iran. It sounds like a name but I don't know what place this is. It was a map and I suppose wars did change the maps as territories changed hands in the past.

Dr. B: ARAN is a name. For me it sounds like I have heard it before. I know this information is coming from me and not you but then you are looking at it so your unconscious has "fished" this name up. The content of your dreams and your associations leads me to believe I once read of a city in Iran in the ancient Middle East called ARAN, though there may be other places with this name. I believe it has to do with trying to get in touch with Source consciousness, for that is the meaning of the dream. That would not be strange in view of this string of dreams you bring today.

I know you know the meaning of trout; a fish is the symbol of the Christ figure. You are portraying him in his agitation, as are you and many other, at the current state of the world. And maybe your dream also symbolizes the mass unconscious. But remember agitation is also what is necessary in order to break through to a different and higher dimension. I also know that the letters ARAN can be understood by using the knowledge of the Kaballah in which A is the breath of God, the R (resh) is the forebrain which distinguishes man above all creatures and the N is related to the fish. So you were talking about trying to make contact with Source consciousness, a new map, where that is the sole point on the map for everyone.

Patient: I would, I would gladly.

CASE THREE: PATIENT INTRODUCTION

This is the patient who is described in my essays “Applesauce” and “The Mysterious Leap from the Mind to the Body” and Case 3 Ms. E in my book The Mother’s Signature: A Journal of Dreams.

DREAM ONE

I’m sorting, sorting, sorting. What goes where?

There are two large three-dimensional balls made entirely of tiny pieces of metal that hold together like tiny magnets. They are tiny square chips the size of a pinky fingernail and there are thousands of them holding together tightly and magnetically into the shape of two balls.

Will the two balls be pulled together by the magnetic attraction and touch each other and stick?

ASSOCIATIONS AND INTERPRETATIONS

Dr. B: So what do you think?

Patient: I think the tiny chips are all of your interpretations.

Dr. B: And what else?

Patient: It looks like I have gone from sorting out to creating these two balls. I would like to think they are my conscious and unconscious and I wonder if I am at the point of getting them to join.

Dr B: So far that sounds right.

Patient: I am suddenly thinking of a new client and mulling over the problems they presented to me. It's complicated but I think I did sort it out and we talked for a long time. They live in D (a very big city). But there are questions and pitfalls that have to be addressed and I will do so.

I wonder if I am ready for this piece of work. Not the clients, I can do that but the two silver balls.

Dr. B: Well, can you? Are you ready?

Patient: I hope so. I hope I can bring these both together, you know the conscious and the unconscious. You know K says she thinks of it this way, that the intellect is the handmaiden of the imprint and I can certainly sign that statement over and over again. I know the intellect has to become the handmaiden of the unconscious. That really would be best. I see and feel after all these years the unconscious does run our lives or does and can ruin our lives. Today after all this civilization all over the world and its many great civilizations today, ours is a great civilization like the Romans and we seem to be going to pot. The world is built upon powerful and very bright people. You know the phrase "the best and the brightest". They made a mess of it, as it is even more of a mess now. All that intellect with nothing to rein it in.

Dr. B: It sounds like we agree. I have not had a quarrel with anything you have said. It just remains for you to put these two balls together and see what happens.

Patient: I feel some anxiety when you say that. The metal bits are like a stress release device I used to have on my desk in the 90's. You could pull these up and down and over and run your fingers through them to create different shapes because they were tiny magnets and would stick together. The idea was to use your fidgety hands and fingers to do something while you were on the phone.

Dr. B: But what you have in mind is not just an anxiety relieving device but one that will provide and create new thoughts as you do your thinking and speaking to your task, don't you think?

Patient: Right, right.

DREAM TWO

I am trying to gather some information for a project that I am writing. Is it a book? I am going to meetings and talking to people. The interviews are going okay, but now it is time to start cutting up the material and pasting it together into different configurations. I need to figure out which way is going to work best. I am trying one thing and then another – every possible different combination that I can think of in an attempt to get it all just right.

DREAM THREE

I am an Indian living in India. I am promised to someone in an arranged marriage, but I want to marry someone else. I meet him. I kiss him. We try to run away together, but it does not seem possible. It looks like I must marry the people our parents have chosen for us.

DREAM FOUR

It is announced that Princess Diana is alive after all these years, and she is pregnant with a son. The whole world is shocked to know that she is alive and that she is even pregnant.

ASSOCIATIONS AND INTERPRETATIONS

Patient: This first dream seems consistent with a number of the other dreams I have had over the last few weeks. I seem to always be sorting and organizing and sifting things lately… I suppose they are mostly the ideas that we are discussing in here and that are starting to form the framework of the next level of my personality. There have been at least a half dozen dreams about organizing and sorting over the last few weeks, as you know. In this one, I am writing and then rewriting and reshuffling words and paragraphs and concepts. I think I am writing the book of my life and how I want it to be going forward. This dream seems clear. But I don’t like the second dream… I want to be with the man I love and not the one my parents want. I am afraid that this dream means that I am supposed to stay married to my imprint… isn’t that the “lover” that my biological parents gave me albeit unconsciously? I want to take up with my real lover who I think is the Unconscious. This dream seems to say I will not succeed in doing that.

Dr. Bail: Why are you living in India?

Patient: I don’t know, but I am definitely dark skinned with dark hair and so is my lover, and we are in India. I think India must be a place of great spirituality, although I have never been there.

Dr. Bail: The Buddha was living in India when he was brought back to China at the request of the Emperor. Yes, India is a spiritual place.

Patient: I know it makes no sense, but I am thinking that “India” and “Indians” are somehow related to the Native American Indians of the US. I think I am dreaming about both kinds of Indians.

Dr. Bail: The Native Americans were also a very spiritual people. Why are you thinking about them?

Patient: I attended an entertainment industry conference over the weekend, and Clint Eastwood was the keynote speaker. At first I was annoyed because I had a really bad seat… up in the balcony and at the far end. I could hear Clint Eastwood, but I could not really see him. He was interviewed about his career and the way he makes films and runs his company that is called “Malpaso.” He talked about starting his career doing the television show “Rawhide” and his “spaghetti westerns” with Sergio Leone in Italy. He always brings his films in under budget and does them in fewer shooting days than allotted. His crews and actors love him. He is 79 years old and has been making films for 55 years. Listening to him talk, I thought about cowboys and about Indians. I know I had Native American Indians on my mind last night so maybe I have “translated” that to Indians of India.

Dr. Bail: What did Clint Eastwood say was the reason he has been so successful?

Patient: He was very humble and self-effacing on the issue. He joked that he thought people just followed his lead because they had a father complex, or maybe, he said “a grandfather complex.” Then he laughed and just said, “I think that people just feel my quiet confidence… after all I have been doing this for a long time.” I was struck by his words because so many times in this room you and I have talked about how my work with you has imbued me with a quiet confidence and that my clients all feel it and gravitate to it. I am told so many times by them that they feel so confident when they speak to me about their problems and concerns. One of my clients told me on Friday after an incredibly complex negotiation with the other side involving multiple issues and difficult personalities that he was only sorry he had not met me earlier. His partner said she admired the way I could distill complex information into the essence of what needed to be done or understood. These are qualities that have come from our work together… sorting, sorting and sorting. Removing what does not work. Making internal space for me that is clearer and more easily accessed. All of that is reflected to the outside world at a deep unconscious level. The process we do in here four days a week of unflinchingly holding up feelings and thoughts to the light for analysis and dissection and examination and then understanding them from all perspectives is incredibly illuminating. It has been a tedious, difficult and arduous task but I am clearer and more free now than ever before, and I feel luckier than Clint Eastwood. His confidence comes from his working world. Mine comes from my internal world.

Dr. Bail: In two sentences, what did you learn from the conference this weekend?

Patient: That nothing in the external world (not hobnobbing with major producers, directors, etc.) is as interesting to me as my relationship with the Unconscious and that I would not trade places with even those in my industry who are considered to be at the pinnacle of their careers… I am quite happy to be me pretty much all of the time. I don’t miss any of the trappings of what other people consider success… I don’t aspire to it and I don’t need it….it just does not interest me in the same way that it used to…I am, for the most part, content with my life.

Dr. Bail: It is quite a different place for you to feel fine and even wonderful even when you are not the special one and are sitting in a balcony seat with no view of the “star”.

Patient: Yes, it is quite a relief not to need to be special all the time. Even sitting in the lousy seat, I knew I was just fine and wouldn’t want to trade places with any person in that auditorium. And when the client told me last week that he wished he had met me sooner, I understood that he does not love me and he is not my mommy… he was just acknowledging my help, and I appreciated it without turning it into something else in my mind.

Dr. Bail: Why are you dreaming about Princess Diana? What does she mean to you?

Patient: I loved her… she was living the greatest fairytale ever. I stayed up all night in 1981 to watch her wedding on television to Prince Charles because it was being broadcast from the UK live and there was an eight hour time difference. She was a real princess… every dream come true.

Dr. Bail: But she was terribly ill. She was a person looking for herself because she had no help that allowed her to find or hold herself emotionally.

Patient: But she was living every woman’s fantasy in her external reality. She was marrying a Prince and the future King of England. She was fascinating to watch.

Dr. Bail: Why is she alive again in your dream and pregnant besides?

Patient: Maybe I want to have the fairytale that she had … maybe Diana in the dream is actually me… I want to be like Princess Diana living a fairytale life even though I say that I am content in my current life. Maybe I am still seeking the external over all else.

Dr. Bail: But you had your fairytale life… you married your prince…your ex-husband.

Patient: No, I married a King. He was a king not a prince.

Dr. Bail: So, you had your fairytale only better, and now it is over.

Patient: Yes, it is over, and when I think about it, that is more than fine with me. So, why do I invoke Diana… why do I seem to want to be her when she is all about fairytales and not reality?

Dr. Bail: I think Princess Diana is you, but she is back now to show you that you are the new Princess Diana… 11 years older. Didn’t she die in 1998? It is now 2009… much time has passed. It is good that you are back as the more mature Diana. You want to be the older and wiser version of her. This older more mature Princess Diana is having a baby. That baby is the new personality that you are gestating and waiting to deliver for yourself out of this work. Who is the father of this baby?

Patient: I think it must be a baby conceived with you and my unconscious.

Dr. Bail: If you think that is so, then I would agree.

Patient: I think it is correct that I am trying to birth my new self… that’s also related to all of the sorting and sifting of pieces of me and the putting the pieces all together in different ways. Yes, I am trying to be someone new now. So, what does all of this have to do with India and Indians… does it mean what I think… that I am going to continue to be a slave to my imprint because I will marry the lover chosen by my parents, i.e., the imprint? That is not consistent with the Diana dream where I am supposed to be birthing my new personality based upon all of our work.

Dr. Bail: The man who you want to run away with as your lover was the imprint. It is your Divine Parents who have a different plan in mind for you. The dream is not about your biological parents and what they want for you. It is about what your Divine Mother and Divine Father want for you. It is a good omen in that the dream says that you must marry the one whom your Divine Parents chose for you… that one is your true self as revealed to you through your dreams and the Unconscious. You cannot marry the imprint because your Divine Parents have a very different plan for you, and they are reminding you of that in this dream.

CASE FOUR

Regarding the mass unconscious, I put forward a dream of my patient Dr. Dombrowski, who figures in Chapter 7, Case 2 of my book The Mother’s Signature: A Journal of Dreams and in a number of my essays (“Why Dr. Dombrowski Doesn't Have a Life”).

DREAM

In this recent dream he is going down to the lake from his parent's house. The lake is just across the road as it was in reality. He has to climb down the cliff and he drops twelve feet to a ledge. What he sees petrifies him. There is no ledge on which he can jump further down and nothing but sheer cliff on the way back up. He feels he can easily stay here and starve. Looking down, the drop is forty feet and on rock. He cannot jump into the lake. He feels doomed.

Suddenly he looks to his right and sees another jutting rock. He makes it over to this rock and sees his way down but suddenly he hears the cries of kittens and he is seized by feelings of dismay. He is a cat lover and a cat saver and has his own foundation that does this. The cries increase. There seem to be many kittens. He feels he may be able to take several and save them but soon there is a chorus of cries, not just five or ten but scores. It's as if a cavern opens and he sees hundreds of cats and kittens meowing. He feels stricken. How much can he do? And the dream ends on this note of despair.

COMMENTARY

Since Dr. D has been in analysis a long time, he knows the meaning of his predicament. He must truly give up his destructive parents. There is no way to turn back to them. Yet the dream sees him walking at the shoreline, not entirely in the lake, so he is still aware of his ambivalence about not being in his unconscious. Then he knew the cats and kittens represented his unconscious. I told him his love for kittens came early in his life because he was bereft at how his parents abused his brothers and sister as they did him. These siblings were the helpless "kittens" he was always trying to save. He was especially distraught when as a child he saw his parents put a newborn litter of kittens in a sack which they threw in the lake drowning them. It didn't take much imagination for him to feel they could do it to him or his younger brothers and sister.

In addition he knew the cries were of countless numbers of people, the masses, who were in great pain and in terrible circumstances where he was unable to do much about this. "I would like to", he said. "Good", I replied, "Find a way".

We see here that this man has the seeds of a great and generous humanity which will in time come into greater awareness and will lead to a greater accomplishment. At this moment in time, he is just a tick away from that experience, being a little too inhabited by his parents.

Unfortunately the masses, not only in America but in the world, do not know how grievously injured they are, how victimized they are. They respond with a helpless shrug echoing generations of slavery.

POSTSCRIPT (This is a continuation of Case Two)

In the following I wish to add the dreams of this patient which are amazingly similar to the predictions of the great prophets Isaiah, Jeremiah, and Daniel of Israel. All of their prophecies came to pass. We are in no different circumstance now as were those people at that time.

The landscape of this planet lies in a state of ruin with all the broken promises to a deity that these people, these masters, say exist. But their deity is only a graven image. One does not need a gothic church to pray to

Source or an awesome Mosque or a Synagogue. Just alone in silence is enough for anyone, for everyone.

CASE TWO (continuation)

I present the patient's version of the session. It seemed to me correct to do so. After all what is important is not so much what I remember of the session (for I do not write during the session, I listen). It is what the patient takes away and remembers forever that is the final importance.

PATIENT'S THOUGHTS

The session started with me saying that it had been a somewhat dismaying day the night before the dream. I had been dealing with some very nasty behavior from a number of people, had gone out to dinner with my sister, her husband, my sister-in-law and her daughter, all four of whom I really like. But I was painfully aware of how little they believe what I have come to understand through dreams. Later in the evening, after the others had left, I responded to another of my sister-in-law’s dreams, a widow now with a new boyfriend. In the session I tell Doctor Bail I feel that I have interpreted her dream pretty well and am quite clear she will pay no attention to any of it, may even mock me as she has done before when I have talked about dreams etc. It is still a pleasant evening in NY where I’m visiting. After walking my sister-in-law home, I walk back alone to my sister’s place at the bottom of Manhattan, enjoying the twenty to thirty block journey in the warm evening.

MY DREAM

I am with someone, perhaps my new girlfriend. I am looking to help her shoot the final scene in a documentary it seems that she is making. It involves a young man talking with a group of older men, experts. This is being shot, it seems, at a large estate that I grew up on during my teenage years, eight acres and a mansion. At the moment I wake up into the dream I am in the back section of this estate, which (in reality) was surrounded by Pennsylvania farmland. The experts, there are quite a few, have lined up along the edges of this section of the property which is about an acre and a half square with hedges and bushes. It almost feels like preparation for a battle, everyone along the edges. I say to my friend, this will be very difficult to shoot, everyone spread out like this and, besides, haven’t we done a lot of scenes like this? I bring them all in closer, trying to set a scene for them to talk where they are more intimate. This is done on the back edge of the property where there now appears to be a ridge and it seems like where I went to college which looked out over a city. In the dream the city felt like Los Angeles. But the images of people talking with this kind of background also seemed already overdone in the film. What to do? I find myself now going outside the property for some other options. But everything around the house has been leveled. Everything. It is no longer the Pennsylvania countryside or Los Angeles, but a different area that I had lived in when I was younger (from kindergarten to 4^th grade); the New Jersey residential neighborhood bordering Newark. Everything had been leveled here, for as far as I could see – miles and miles. On my right it was all houses down to their foundations, on the left it was the city, also completely gone, with only the foundations of the buildings – no brick, no debris – just the very basic foundations all the way to all horizons. This didn’t seem to bother me. I just took it for what it was. I was then back on the property again, saying let’s bring out the Round Table (which had been in the real mansion, a table built by my father to capture King Arthur’s belief that everyone was equal – that there was no head of the table). In the dream I suggested that all the food be brought out from the mansion (leftover’s from a dinner party I had recently given in reality.) We could buy some big crusty bread, I suggested. It would look like a feast. We could put a tarp over the table from the camping equipment that was there to defuse the light and then shoot the young man and the elders that way – simple, effective, beautiful.

PATIENT'S INTERPRETATION

The first part of the dream, said Bail, captured how things have been the same over and over, no different; wars, violence, unwillingness to look at the truth -- what I had been feeling all day. No change just talk, talk and more of the same talk. I was pretty clear about the leveled world part of the dream, having grown sadly aware that everything of this culture must be cleared away, like the flood of the Old Testament. Very troubling to face, but there seems to be no way around it. Dr. Bail agreed and said further that the human race could either do it itself or God would do it in which case the process would be far worse. Afterwards, I thought about this, my sense being that it will be harder not because God is vengeful, but because people cling to their lies so tenaciously, as my sister-in-law was doing, as evidenced by her dream -- that they have to be ripped loose from their confusion. After being aware of this need or reality in the dream, I am able to go back to the estate and suggest a Round Table. Bail noted that this was going to need to be the new paradigm – no one higher than anyone else and that the young man was Jesus, which I had also begun to feel just as we were nearing the end of the session. Dr. Bail said that, yes, the young man was the young Jesus and the old men were the wise elders who were so amazed at the wisdom of Jesus in his youth.

Interesting, as I think about this, that the new paradigm is so laid out by information from the past – the flood, Jesus, the round table.

MY SISTER-IN-LAW’S DREAM

The day of her dream she had just sold her husband's sailboat (deceased approximately five years). In the dream she had sailed the boat to JFK to take a flight to Italy, “a beautiful place.” It seemed like the easiest thing to do but she couldn’t find a slip, although she was in Queens very near the airport. She parked it parallel on a dock/street area to look for a proper slip. She was looking everywhere, ended up on a Metroliner-like train, where she heard them call out “Seaford.” She grew concerned about where she was going, went to the front to ask the “bus driver,” who was black, but as she approached him she realized that he was Al Sharpton’s body guard. When asked, he had no idea where they were. The “bus driver” was further up the car.

PATIENT'S INTERPRETATION

It took my sister-in-law and I awhile to figure out where Seaford was. She had vaguely heard of it. Upon Googling it we found it was quite far from JFK, going the wrong direction. At this point she remembered one last piece of the dream, that she had only 45 minutes to catch the flight so she clearly had missed it. I said the boat was her not being able to let go of her late husband, and even though she had sold the boat today that selling it hadn’t solved the problem. Dr. Bail agreed and went further, saying she was sailing in the boat of one who was dead. Her boyfriend, Alan, had told her, as he had attempted to interpret the dream as well, that clearly he was Al Sharpton. I agreed, but not happily, pretty clear that the dream was saying that her current boyfriend was taking her away from the possibility of going to “a beautiful place.” I tried to approach this issue carefully and suspected that she hadn’t really taken it seriously. It felt counterproductive to go to much further than to say maybe the dream was saying he was a bit problematic. Although Dr. Bail went further with me pointing out that Al Sharpton was slick, manipulative, untruthful and seemed to be out for himself and that she was talking to his body guard and that her boyfriend is guarded as well as deeply troubled. All of this is pretty much bad news for her. But then who was the driver, I asked Dr. Bail, taking her in the wrong direction? He said it was her unconscious saboteur, as described in his last essay, and that she was working against herself.

COMMENTARY

It seems that a constant stimulus is required for human beings to be of value, this stimulus of interacting and supporting each other. The reflecting back and forth to each other offers us the empowered state of who we are. That which a person worries about, "What I am not", needs to be erased in the consciousness of humanity. It needs to cease so that what can be seen is that no matter what age one is, there is always the capability to remember the great intelligence and the worthiness.

In the evolution of separation and the evolution of union there is a birthing and an exploration of the many lives. In the new birth there is that union with the Great Mother, that evolution into the higher states of consciousness and wisdom that is carried encoded into every cell in every individual being.

What is one doing? In these many lifetimes going, traversing life experiences, experiencing to explore and exploring to experience.

This is what is being shown in these dreams, how one comes into the hospital, the healing place of the Great Mother, to bring themselves in preparation of the new birth that can merge into the new state of consciousness and in this human form create the successes and create the sacred balance with Source. It is a journey - our journey.

In the beginning when humanity began to explore its souls on the earth plain and all that was there was the problem of survival, there was no knowledge of the Source self. That moment in time was a period of the greatest separation from Source.

There has been the growth of awareness that we are not separate, that we have a mind, that one can deduce and explore, that we have capabilities, that we can build our own homes, build our lives and explore how strong our minds and our emotions are. Indeed we are creators. Once we have crossed the threshold of that knowing, we can begin the union. You may go back millions of years to recognize the separation that occurred. Even then there was an existence of a human form.

For example we know that there was Neanderthal man. Suppose and image that Source showered a segment of man existing with higher vibrations which changed the genes and ultimately brought about a new species called Cro-Magnon and from that likewise a new species called Homosapiens. As regards that, though we have that name it is premature to identify us as Homosapiens. Look at the world around us!

It may be that all changes and physical clues that archeologists and anthropologists hunt for to verify our theories may not be found. My suggestion is that Source brought about or initiated the change. Those who remained as Neanderthal could not bring themselves to change. Further, considering the search for the missing link, there may be none. There may only be that transition, as mentioned above, from one species to another higher species.

Today I think, despite the gloom and the chaos in the world, we must keep open the option or consider that universal agitation is a prelude to a change in all of mankind and, here it would be a paraphrase of the academic adage "change or perish", change to a being with higher vibrations resulting in a more elevated type of human being, eminently in union with Source and eminently concerned with the well being of all children and all men and women everywhere (see Case Four - Dr. Dombrowski's Dream). A new species of our essential humanness must arise.

In our book of time there is a new vibration of change in our cosmos. In our history books there will be another time pointing to this time, it being said there was a missing link. Actually there was not, only the transition between men and women of today and those of the future, whenever that time will be. There will be no end to humanity but there will be an end to what we perceive and live with that exists today.