The time must come and will come when the privileged and mighty who rule the planet will realize that their descendants will also perish amid the falling towers and temples. There has always been the LAW and no man-made law will ever supersede Divine law. We have not come to that time yet. We will come to it ultimately, consciously, willingly or we will be destroyed and the universe can decide when and how and if to duplicate the experiment.

As the prophets of old have said of ancient rulers of ancient cities, those truths will be exercised no matter how many nuclear bombs we or someone has, no matter how sophisticated our machinery of life. And where are the prophets today? We need them desperately. It is my belief that the prophets were saying not so much about greed and arrogance, though it was there, but here are the things of your consciousness that will leave you feeling and sensing your separateness. It is not so much about the avarice and pride but it is about the slipping of the consciousness that limits the awareness of humanity as Source embodied.

It is a wonder despite all the knowledge in the libraries of the great universities in the world and all of the learned men who inhabit them, who have been through them; there is still the ancient unbridled appetite. I believe it has to be understood in the light of man's imprint in the womb, a fact at this time unknown in the world. Yet it guides the lives of all of us and puts our lives in the hands of the unenlightened -- hungry for power and riches that cannot ultimately satisfy the ultimate goal of man.

As it is in the single damaged family so it is for the world. It can be no other way. It is no other way

DREAMS FROM DR. D. (Dr. Dombrowki essay, 2005)

Dreams One and Two

Patient: I had two dreams. In the first I could see my kitchen but it was much bigger and I could see there were four refrigerators side by side. I couldn't understand it. Why four? But there were four and I thought, "Why not." I could use each one for something different for example vegetables, meat, fish and so on.

In the second dream I was back home on the lake and in my boat. My brother was on the boat and my sister (dead for some time). They were drinking and having a riotous time

The boat was an advanced model made of material like space age, a fusion of carbons. It was a great boat. As the dream went on, they were so drunk running around the deck that they capsized the boat and it sank. So I was there in the water but I was not afraid. The water was warm and I can swim. I wondered, could I ever retrieve this boat?

In a little while a salvage boat comes along and it saves me and he says he can dredge the boat up which he does and the man assures me it will dry and be as good as new. I wake up.

Associations:

Patient: My brother, years ago, actually did just that. He got drunk with a friend and they did tip the boat over. It sank. It was not retrieved.

You know my sister has been dead a long time. She was an awful alcoholic and would not let me help her in any way. Now I watch my brother and I cannot say anything. He is convinced he has a physical problem and nothing will change his mind. I fear sooner or later he will find a doctor to operate on his back and that will be the beginning of more trouble. He used to drink too but gave it up and has been sober a long time. However, he is awfully depressed.

Dr. B: Well, what about them in the dream? Did they drown?

Patient: No, they had life preservers and were floating off away. I knew they were safe. I couldn't believe this salvage boat. I asked the man about the boat drying and he said it would end up as good as new and that was good news to hear. I believed him.

Dr. B: Do you have any thoughts about the four refrigerators in the first part of the dream?

Patient: You know I eat steak. I love Kobe steak and I do order big amounts, which I keep in the fridge. I have a Subzero. It's the best and in the dream there were four of them. Kobe is a steak that is absolutely delicious. A Japanese idea but now they do it in America following the Japanese model. If I had four fridges I would really order big and keep them in one or two of the fridges. It's unimaginably delicious.

Interpretation:

Dr. B: It sounds like times of abundance are coming.

Patient: Well, I feel encouraged. I am paying off my debts, my obligations and I think I will be free in three or four months so that's right.

Dr. B: About the boat, I think this is the boat of your spirit given to you. But your brother and sister are representative of your father and mother, both of whom drank enormously and they capsized your being and lost you, supposedly your spirit, and a good part of your life. I do not have to tell you of the great amount of suffering you have had because you thought it was important and necessary to keep your soul submerged, lost to you, as if your parents ordained that. It's what I call your imprint.

It is obvious that the man on the salvage boat, which is your analysis, can rescue your boat. That is your spirit and your life and gives you a chance to live well and sensibly.

The dream also says even they, your brother and sister, your mother and father, are not lost in the eyes of God. Their souls are bobbing around surviving.

So far you have lost a brother and a sister as well and it would appear that another brother in this severe depression would not let you help him see a way out. Let me add that your love for your sister is so compelling as to bring her back into the sea of consciousness from which we all derive so that she could learn what you have to teach her.

Patient: Maybe. I can't talk to him. He won't listen and if I do he may break off entirely. Maybe I will just let him see who and where I am and maybe that might be best.

Dr. B: It might be. I agree that it might be for fear of losing contact entirely.

Dream Three:

(Dream about medical school)

Dream:

Patient: I have spoken a lot about Johns Hopkins. I didn't do my best there and looking back I am sorry. I am sorry about so many things. I admired the Nazis, imitated them riding on motorcycles, their exalted physical strength, and drank a lot. I am also sorry about the way I treated people and nurses, how I used them all. I know now it all had to do with my father. It's been a long while since I have thought about those times but in the dream I was going up to see this woman patient on the ward.

Associations:

Dr. B: Do you have any patients on the ward?

Patient: No. That's strange. After all I am an emergency room doctor and we don't have patients in the hospital yet I know that I was there punching the elevator to go see her. I don't think I would do well as that kind of doctor. Maybe now I could handle it but you know dealing with ER patients has been difficult. There's been so much of my father and mother available in my work and so little of me. But that's changed considerably and the staff is being complimentary to me and like me a lot better now. Still sometimes it is distressing, the patients that come in.

Yesterday was a bad day. This woman comes in and said her doctor told her she had a blood clot in her pelvis. I knew at once that wasn't true but I got the history and examined her. There was nothing wrong. Maybe anxiety, but you can't say that to a patient in the ER.

She didn't believe me and insisted that we have an X-ray no matter what. She said she would not leave. So I suggested she get an ultrasound and when I showed her it was perfectly normal she left. I think part of her still disbelieving.

Then a Latino man in his 40's came with his wife. I had to get the clerk to translate. His wife didn't feel well and he was concerned it was her chest, her lungs. I examined her and there was nothing. Still he insisted. I did an EKG, which was normal, and then an X-ray also normal. He left also still not believing. I think they went to another ER. And so it went. What is the point of going to great medical school? They don't teach how to get patients to believe you.

Dr. B: So why would you be going down two levels to the Children's Cancer Ward?

Patient: I don't know except it was the most astonishing experience of my life. I never saw such beautiful colors. I can hardly describe them except by using the words Violet and Pink. You know I do professional photography so I know a lot about colors. I don't think I could ever get this range, these patterns and this mood.

Dr. B: Who was there? Did you see any children?

Patient: I saw no one.

Dr. B: Not even a secretary?

Patient: No. Maybe she was on a break or lunch or the restroom. But the room had an incredibly peaceful feeling. I was mesmerized actually and I don't know how long I was there. Finally I left.

Interpretation:

Dr. B: I think you are saying in this dream that medical schools do not teach where physical illness begins, which is in childhood or infancy or exactly in the womb. The people you mention, and you have done so many times, are people whose trauma comes from long ago. Even if they do develop physical illness, the real answers are two floors below, that is in the unconscious.

From this work you, thinking about your experience in psychoanalysis, like these patients, did you believe what I said in my many interpretations to you?

Patient: God, no. Even though I came I did not and it took a long time before I actually did.

Dr. B: Maybe you feel I was distressed by your disbelief as you were with all those damaged psychically ill patients who really will never have any access to their consequences of their early trauma.

Finally I think you were able to get in touch with your spiritual self - your higher self - that is our (all of us) connection to the Divine. You have it -- that to get to adult trauma, the woman on the third floor, you have to go below to the unconscious that contains the answers that the traumatized person needs to have to heal the wounds.

When that happens good times may be coming as the dream you spoke of shows, the one with the big kitchen and the four refrigerators.

COMMENTARY

It is common knowledge that the colors in this dream are identified as spiritual ones and indicates that the patient has undergone an amazing transformation (See prior history in “Why Dr. Dombrowski Doesn’t Have a Life,” essay 2005, web site: holistic psychoanalysis.com) so as to be able to illicit this experience and the dream plus associations reveal the integration taking place as the result of such an experience.

If we consider the dream about this boat, his brother and sister (mother and father), the boat capsizing, he is indeed presenting us with a metaphor, even a parable, of salvation. The dream explicitly says he will be saved, salvaged, and indeed his persistence in the analysis despite not believing until he finally believed and was convinced that he had better do as his dream were saying else he would die. These insights came slowly with misgivings, with fears of leaving his mother of infancy or fears of being abandoned by her and dying and not being able to distinguish that leaving her and the imprint she gave him would save his life not destroy it. His sister was already dead and another brother died after a sudden appearance of an autoimmune disease that could not be stopped.

When I asked in the session what had happened to his brother and sister, did they drown, he said they had life preservers and were floating around somewhere.

It is my belief that this accounts for the long held belief of salvation as he was saved by his and my efforts to get him to understand the roots of his illness - the salvaged vessel.

Then it might be asked if we consider the siblings and the mother and father themselves badly traumatized attempting to allay their pain with alcohol and receiving very little relief by this method despite their wealth and all their wealth brings. What of them? My answer is, “nobody is lost.”

I can ask the old question with Sienkowicz "Quo Vadis, whither goest thou?” The answer is, "To God.” There is no other place to go -- in His way and in His time.