WOUNDED INFANTS OF TIME
by Bernard W. Bail, M.D.
I have said that
there is no such thing as adult analysis, a statement
often met with great surprise. Yet all an analyst
can do is look at and undo the impact of early
trauma dealt to the infant when his mind was shattered.
And all of our minds are shattered—before
birth or shortly after—by the projection
of the unwanted and unconscious content of the
mother’s mind.
It
is this missile that enters the fragile mind of
the infant and tears it apart. The infant is caught
off guard, and does not even have recourse to language
to express the effect of this violent attack. In
time the infant understands that it must gather
all this trauma--as well as the knowledge that
it is the mother herself responsible for it, the
one on whom he depends for his life--and put it
aside. It is the only way for the infant to survive.
So
when analysts talk or write about certain character
structures or anyone’s character in the course
of the work of analysis, it is to this state that
the reference is made. In the course of any analysis
the work is arduous to get to this point. It
will take years, and every inch of ground is fought
over. Think of any war—think Vietnam,
think Afghanistan—in which the contest is
grim and determined, and the stakes are life itself.
No
matter how educated you are as an analyst, how
learned or intelligent or dignified, the patient
will fight with unrelentingfury to defeat you and
he always has the means with which to do it, even
if he agrees with you and sees the rationale of
your plan.
He
can leave the work, and thus he can win. But in
terms of there being a transformation of his essential
self, he will have lost. Frankly, he will have to
lose in order for there to be a transformation.
Analysis
is fundamentally about change: not change in intellectual
content, but change in the emotional body. And
such change cannot come about without getting access
to and then facing this early catastrophe—taking
it piece by piece and knitting it into a healthy
entity called the useful mind.
What
does this trauma look like? What does this early
infantile trauma look like? It looks like shock,
fear, and terror; it looks like bafflement, horror,
like insecurity, disbelief, paranoia, paralysis,
numbness, and rage; it is impotence and anguish
and the deepest sorrow, and it feels like wishing
to die.
We
are all now living and experiencing what we as
infants experienced in some measure and developed
antidotes to in some measure, and we have lived
with these defensive maneuvers undetected, especially
when they fall within the range of what is considered
normal.
So
when bin Laden says he’ll make us feel what
the Arab world (and he can say the Asian world
and the African world) has been feeling all this
time, what he’s saying is true.
Shall
we consider him a terrorist or a “wild psychoanalyst” who
made a remarkable interpretation before the western
world, now the patient, was ready for it?
For
underneath it all—black skin, yellow skin,
brown skin, or white—we are all the wounded
infants of time.
Copyright © Bernard W. Bail, M.D. 2005
October 20, 2001
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